Dawn’s Sheen | Rebecca Walter

*published in Murfreesboro 2021 Calendar

my first published work

 

I trace a photo with my calloused thumb.

Cup in hand, I wiggle my toes; I tune,

a turn from hymn’s hollow aluminum.

 

The sting of nettle outside while we hum—

Crickets ring along orchards. We croon

as the fading rain shakes what’s dim, wakes numb

 

with our why's and when's unlipped. We are flung-—

& do echoes still toss from strangers who

wonder  If we're growth? If we're hum?

 

We’ll say, in those branches our hammock hung

------- & to us beckoned the sallow-voiced loon—

here’s to this wild place, the hammock we spun

 

under branches’ umbrellas. Past, unsummed—

we had wings, we had our own waning moons.

Cool perimeter wafts—I’ll be undone

 

by nightcrawlers, coffee & you. Alone

sipping honesty, sweetly overgrown,

why do I open this now empty room?

I bite my thumb. We were meadow—sun’s drum.

I wrote a series of sonnets a couple summers ago, inspired by work on the farm. Those 10-12 hour days meant we oft’ spoke with our bygone—— to keep the work song up from sunrise to sunset.

Inspired by okra pods, tomato tar, sweat bee stings:

OUR COMMITMENT TO SLIME

-for Tony Bourdain, in Space

I sassed permission——thistle & prickle

You & some vessel——golden with yoke

Fresh palate——woah, effulgent bell’s tickle

long after the day itches to joke

You need what you need when you fall

Some color some blossom! Last night

from body to body & through tendrilled thrawl

This morning, too, another light. Who’ll taste a bite?

Did you twist just because sense of place falls?

You’re in my ear: We’ll eat what we catch!

I’m catching up so best not to fall

while requesting a scratch

From you—— Sting—— You found me again

while caught in this skin.



this poem is “duplex” form by Jericho Brown: sonnet + ghazal..also a blues song. I left all 4 working titles to showcase the difficulty in simplifying this into song. this is my first song. recited for “Write With Pride” (of Southern Word). read slowly; use heart-breath.

Late February has me missing friends & anxiously awaiting season’s change, like a gate about to open. I wanted to try a new form for Poetry in the Boro, & a ghazal for cazzle just hit. This is for all my friends, to fly through the time & space between us.

I wrote this for Bloom Stage in collaboration with Poetry in the Boro on December 16, 2021. Audience joins on the last 2 words.

 
 
 
 

 

DAILY PROMPT, Feb 7:

Have a female character accept a ride from a man whom she doesn’t know well, where he questions her about her mother, & where an unexpected delay occurs.


**(This was tricky for me, on & off the page. It’s new, (since grade-school) to be this imaginative on paper. New is always a challenge. Here goes:

DIAMOND TRANSMISSION

Signs hop on our windshield (as rain) to pull over before we see stars, then split the meal we packed. No sense hauling through this storm.

We each write & wander some in our rain suits & take turns changing. Warm & slightly buzzed, he pulls a prism from his pocket & gazes at me through it; tells me I look kinda funky. Probably because I was lost making wishes—

Tonight, I needn’t wish for more. Our dinner is life-affirmation. Chips, sandwiches, dessert, (from the spot) nabbed before we left. I trust him because my friend trusts him, & he respects a meal.

We eat beside a cove, wind in our favor; I squeal noticing this & unwrap a cookie. After dessert, we try our luck; tires spin. We are going to be stuck all night. Fine. Through the window, waves roll against this short shore as the sun sets & we soak in the thick air.

Our friend introduced us for this road-trip home. With nothing pressing to do until the mud dries by morning (off some forest road) he plays a few of the hits where we match musically.

After an hour more, with a backdrop of laughter he tells me he’d long forgotten to call his mother & asks about mine. I say, she is life-long, the kind of sweet well-fedness that lasts.

Wind, we acknowledge, has gentled. So, we walk & smoke & dance around puddles. The crows wait outside while we walk in the mud like folks wandering (no cars, soft landing). I want my current relationships strong & deep because I’ve fallen (with vigor) & have had little flight lately. My heart beats slow; I’m not seeking confirmation.

We ponder fluff around stones. Is it too much to ask for one to declare one’s hidden mind is on paradise, & is it too much to admit the other’s on home? When do we have time to build into this reality without changing its premise? We pack in for the night.

I answer, You Better Be Lightning, when he asks what I’m reading. In the window he looks like obscure tentacles reaching when he scratches his ear. “Your story is your compass & your compass is broken?” He asks me if he heard me correctly, while he searches for the water straw. “Well you’ll just have to acquire a new one!” he decides.

“Mm,” I say.

He responds, “If tonight you have dreams, you’ll tell me in the morning?” 

 
 
 
 
 
 
My first decent poem, ever, I think. Written in ode to H. Murakami, for my own birthday as a place of solace in the storm, March, 2020. 
 
 
 
 
 
*As an exercise in form poetry I a wrote 3-week series of sonnets. This one turned out okay. It’s day 5 of the practice, written July 21, 2021

^^As an exercise in form poetry I a wrote 3-week series of sonnets. This one turned out okay. It’s day 5 of the practice, written July 21, 2021

 
 
 
 

I revisit this early poem two years later as the first bookend before the world as many of us knew it, shut down. Oh what vitality to travel, to crash. Pandemic & Poetry will forever be linked for me—I began seriously writing poetry in Jan 2020, & by March 2020 the covid virus dismantled our lives. Well, the rest is herstory (or poetry), as they say. More soon.

 
 
 
 
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IMAGE | SHONDELL MCFALL

For DREAM GEOGRAPHIES | painting by SHONDELL MCFALL

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*This poem was written for Robin's dream & featured in DREAM GEOGRAPHIES as part of Amie Whittemore's arts collaborative. 

  • CATALOGUE OF UNABASHED GRATITUDE Bloomsbury Farm Team 2021

    after a poem of the same name by Ross Gay, in the key of Southern Gothic

    (appeals as a spoken word poem, fireside)

    *first several stanzas are heavily borrowed.

    Friends,

    I’ve awakened from a dream

    in which a dragon, well, more

    specifically, a velociraptor

    made with its shabby wings a kind

    of veil behind which it shimmied &

    stomped something from dirt

    looking me dead in eye, black

    eyes buzzing with mosquitos

    from unblanketed beds.

  • In This Dream

    We’ll tend strawberry fields

    under rain’s glare & sunburns. While

    dragon eyes, red thin lines, bright

    wild song, by which I knew

    upon waking, in no uncertain terms,

    were telling me to bellow forth

    to arrive here! So here we are!

  • Hollering!

    That we will shovel tons,

    by which I don’t mean lots,

    I mean tons of compost & gold

    flecked chicken shit. We’ll grab

    & wade through oozing tomatoes;

    you know how they smell.

  • We’ll Break

    Our way through jungles

    of okra, prickle-shits & rashes

    on our skin from leaves, which,

    yes, itch very badly. We dream

    a farm this way. With our hoes,

    broad forks, meadow creekers & this

    returning moon. Our heads & bodies

    sweat through our shirts. We ache.

    This solstice is so hot on our necks.

  • We'll Clear

    Pathways with flathead shovel dragging.

    We plant strawflower, lemon basil,

    star opal basil with its sorrow-

    ful bright & bitter flavor. Friends,

    this is realest place I know.

    Thank you [ustedes],

    strawberry moon, shishitos,

    thank you our griefs— our crop—

    what our bodies plant. Longing, majestic

    intelligence which does not conform;

    was that ever our forecast?

  • We'll Harvest

    Long white stems (100 in 30min,

    for the record). But, first——

    coalesce with snap & pop of

    berries; how soft in morning.

    Quick slice with coarse edge of

    my blade, my butterfly knife. How

    careful we are to leave tops on——

    75 flats by lunch.

  • Thank You

    Market team, warehouse ladies.

    Thank you sprout-house, teachers &

    invisible hands turning these wheels.

    Thank you scorch of watching reaper

    contests, & heat that lingers—

  • Bread & oil, too.

    We exchange offerings,

    like a chain of vines between

    sungolds. Men around caring to hear

    our days, drink our coffee, together

    we sit in these libations. I’ll be

    handed a slice of yellow melon, &

    we’ll rinse dirt——from each finger.

  • And Thank You, Too

    For staying—

    For moon’s long light. Take

    these flavors (groundcherry

    or blueberry, persimmons

    shaken from the tree).

  • & When I’ll Lose

    My clippers on hilltop & my knife

    in the compost——he’ll find them

    a week later; thank you, Bokbok;

    Raddiccio, Thank you nicknames:

    Thank you Walnut, Chamomile,

    Juniper, Bayleaf, Radish, Thai

    Basil, Celosia, Kale, Sunpeach——

    Long Pants, Sweet potato bolos,

    bootquet, bones on the truck.

  • & Good Heavens! 

    A man will give another man

    a four leaf clover! & I’m

    all afternoon in the lavender

    field, a bee finding hive.

    I’m sorry.

    I am grateful,

    I’ll try to stay

    on my side of row.

  • Thank You Broken,

    Torn stems, nectar & seed still

    pulpy & sweet in soft silver shells,

    white grassy petals. Each different,

    from arc of dewy to sunbaked, maple

    waft. Bees, moths, butterflies inches 

    from our noses; smooth backs, black & 

    shiny like polished tesla. I’ll return

    to starflower.

  • He’ll Return With

    What he calls a bin of sadness, 

    chuckling low. We agree when

    we’re itchy long enough——

    a healthy scratch is just right.  

    The fog, which she calls, 

    the cream of despair——

    a good soup. We name

    the fog Elijah, & beg,

    take care of this——del jardin, 

    del rancho, los giros del sol. 

  • Leaves Will Tear

    Beside one’s ear; we’ll discuss

    death & nearly——

    Part of our charm,

    as kin——

    We’ll harvest 

    cosmos in mist.

    We’ll harbor

    & share

    our deepest

    stories in hilltop

    yarrow, late summer, flower’s velvet——

  • We’ll Stop,

    & cut, & bunch. Thunder.

    For lunch, we’ll lounge

    with Minnie’s meta-awareness

    & Trooper’s curious determination.

    Cooper knows drought stands

    for echoes & old friends.

    Do dragons lip them then

    as salt into our wounds?

  • We’ll Tell Ourselves

    Cedar waxwing (sexiest bird alive)

    feasts on juniper berries & point

    to sky. Underfoot——Fistfuls of ghosts

    climb & fall over the goat fence.

    We’ll tell selves the right (the true)

    stories, more than we’ve realized.

    Thank you obscure widows release.

    Thank you the sounds O-K.

  • Eventually Snap-

    Dragons finish, too. In evenings

    I’ll cool my head & neck

    in a wrap of iced green tea.

    Starflower hasn’t opened, though

    it makes me want to bloom, even

    dry like lavender & statice.

  • We’ve Met Rain;

    Ants need not be direct metaphors,

    but reminders of our fears & hopes:

    She’ll show me a moth found in

    compost; sugar water to feed her.

    She’ll give her a comfort potato!

    (Until returned to garden.)

    Thank you shift beer, thank you

    long dresses, thank you regrowth.

    Thank you re-

    everything—

  • Sweat Bees Will Sting

    Both my armpits one day through

    my shirt, & y’all will be there

    to say, “oh man that’s rough, here

    is some plantain!”

    And you’ll show me safety

    in your hands; a praying

    mantis, & faded blue eggs

    in a nest.

  • I’ll forget everything

    Some mornings, so I’ll run

    past skunk & deer along

    tempest fog——no sound

    from grove to hilltop, where

    blackberries have gone

    mostly tart. I return to myself,

    drenched. Beware—

    It is so hot at 5:30am in August.

  • I’ll Feel My Fingers This Time,

    Turning a daily snap.

    We’d wanted dreams; but

    we’ll find whom appreciates this

    quandary: Who turns to singing

    moon, thunder moon, still

    orange & past half full?

    Soft ominous weather,

    holding. We’ll brine.

  • Hydrate well.

    Unbuckle your harnesses, swivel

    as it drops from your sweat-

    soaked back. Gravel Crunches.

    You’ll enjoy such new lightness.

    Tools too heavy? Here are my arms.

    They contain echo & reverb,

    feather & loose twig. That means

    my handshake is binding;

    this means return.

  • So, When We Pull Sky,

    Our wings in parallel

    will widen under waning

    buck moon, layered past

    goats’ recitation, pink

    & yellow at dawn; prospect

    of passionflowers.

    Cloaked & brindled,

    know I see——

    I see, Sir Lady

    Charles on the steps &

    Chickpea in the window

    alerting us——it’s time

    we open the days’ doors.